How many of you people out there
Been hurt in some kind of love affair?
And how many times did you swear
That you'd never love again?
How many lonely, sleepless nights?
How many lies, how many fights?
And why would you want to
Put yourself through all of that again?
Love is pain I hear you say
Love is a cruel and bitter way of
Paying you back for all the faith you ever had in your brain
How could it be that what you need the most
Can leave you feeling just like a ghost?
You never want to feel so sad and lost again
(The first two stanzas from "Brand New Day" by Sting...)
For some reason, this song seems to speak to me lately...the state of my relationship is ...well, I can't figure it out...I don't understand...I can't even explain it...love is a funny thing...
It could happen to you
Just like it happened to me
There is simply no immunity
There's no guarantee
I say love is such a force if you find yourself in it
You need some time for reflection
Wouldn't you think that after being out of work for a couple of weeks that on your first day back the people you work with directly would ask "how are you doing?" Is it me? Or do I work with a bunch of assholes? They basically ignored me when I came in yesterday. Unbelievable. I'm the one who plans the parties, decorates everyone's cube or at least brings in a silly balloon or something when people have birthdays, company anniversaries, etc. You think they could give two seconds of their time to ask me how I'm doing. Nah. Silly me...
so much for going back to work....
oy...so after just one day, my back is killing me again.
I worked for just two hours today and had to leave.
Has to be due to lack of sleep, my own personal issues with this new relationship and a general feeling of discontent in every area of my life.
I never thought I'd be one of those people who feels physical pain when their mental state is unsettled. But here I am.
I think I'll go lay on the couch and just sleep...maybe I'll wake up with a new attitude!
First day back to work since the 4th of June. I decided it was time to stop being a couch (computer) potato and get myself into shape. Of course, I overdid it and managed to screw up my back. Unbelievable. I was doing some exercises, those power 90 videos, and managed to do something that caused the left side of my pelvis to rotate forward. Ouch. So I couldn't sit. I could do everything else...I painted the front porch, I mowed the lawn, etc., but I just couldn't sit in a chair at work! So I've had to go to physical therapy to correct this stupid thing. But it's amazing how quickly they were able to fix me up. It wasn't easy, but they worked hard to help me. I love my physical theapists...when this is over, I'm sending those girls flowers!
So I had a great weekend. A friend invited me to Lime Rock to watch the races. It was awesome. I didn't know whether I'd like it or not, being a girl and all, but it was very cool. Something I'd never experienced before, so up close and personal. It isn't your typical oval track, this is road racing, with hills and s turns and long and short straightaways. There were some of the craziest looking cars I had ever seen there...one guy appeared to be driving his grandmother's VW Scirocco! Musta just floored it all the way! These are real grassroots guys...with full time jobs who just like to drive like the wind whenever they get a chance. They do their own work on the cars, they don't have big crews with fancy equipment to change tires, etc., they do it all themselves. It's amazing. The prizes are silly things like car coffee mugs, no big money or anything like Nascar. Local sponsors, just regular guys. There was even a couple of huge groups who raced Mazda Miatas! One group was stock and the other was modified...boy were they loud! I even met a girl racer at the track. It was her first race. She just finished racing school. She was so cute! I was rooting for her, but there were 25 cars in the group so first time out, she probably didn't have a chance. What an incredible, unforgettable experience.
music
